I am Not That Deep!

Today, I heard a preacher say, he is just not that deep, and it reminded me of a conversation I had with a friend. The friend and I were talking about life and she had it all figured out and I remember saying to her, WOW; I am just not that deep. I admit I can sometimes say deep things but most of the time that is by total accident. ;-)

What did I mean by that? I think I meant I am just living life, I am most definitely trying to do the right things but I must admit I sometimes fall short, and I am sure glad mercies are new every morning. I have always been intense and some have even said intimidating. The intensity comes from having to make adult decisions and deal with very adult situations at way too young of an age. However, I think the intensity was also from trying to figure out who I was going to be or what I was going to do when others were saying not so kind things. The intimidation, well not to sound sarcastic but I somewhat think, that is the issue of the person feeling intimated (sorry).

OK so, with all that being said; I am happy to say that at the moment I get what I am suppose to do and I like who I am! So this year in my journey, I discovered and I admit it was probably in a moment when I was trying to be all super spiritual (oh yeah we all have those moments), I figured out that I am just not that deep (cracking up).

OK, here is what I have figured out:

• I found a career that I am good at, but it is only a small part of whom I am.
• I love video games! Ha, this may be a larger part of me.
• I love being a mom and I think I have the neatness kids.
• I love to help people.
• Finally, I want to make a positive difference.

For me I learned I could accomplish those things through my relationship with Christ. That relationship has taught me not to judge, to be giving, to be forgiving and at peace. Here is the cool part; if I can, not judge, if I can, be at peace, if I am forgiving and if I continue to live to give; then I can accomplish my list above. PRETTY COOL!

Now for my most important lesson, God made me smart, bold, intense, purposeful, and ME, and you know what, I LOVE IT! Live the life you were born to live and LOVE IT!

Stay Blessed,

Toni